Lost in thoughts…

You came into my life just at the right time, I knew I could trust you, because it wasn’t for material things; not in exchange for any dime.

We first met at night with alcohol on our lips and your hands on my hips; like the twinkling of stars, there couldn’t have been scars.

We became one in a night when all we wanted was each other; we were sure it will last, so long we didn’t falter.

I opened up my heart like a book; you came running in, and with your arms wide open, yes you got an embrace.

I did see you, I could feel my heart lifting, temporarily free from all the weights of my fears.
You held my waist and kissed my head and told me that it was all going to be okay; oh yes I believed you!

But it wasn’t.. Why?
Now, my mind is racing and my mouth feels dry like I’ve been going round lost in the desert and everything else is just worthless…

I became too much for you even though you weren’t for me.
You left even though you said you wouldn’t..
You gave up on me even though I needed you…

You’re in my dreams at night and I wake up feeling reminiscent… I feel the aura of you, your scent!
Somehow I can’t stand having anyone else because all I crave for is you.

You never leave my mind and at night I need you more than ever,
I need your voice to calm me down
Your texts to keep me breathing
Your assurances to keep the knives away.

I need you..
I just want you to come back…
Please come back because I don’t want to be lost again..

By Lillian Chidobelu